gusto ko ng ulan

pero tumigil na sya ngayon..

hayy.. hindi pa ko makatulog.. pero kailangan ko ng matulog kasi bukas may pasok nanaman... i wish.... i can handle things properly tomorrow... school stuffs, social stuffs (anti sosyal ako ehhh, i guess) and friends stuff... sila(mga kaibigan ko) lang naman nagpapakumpleto ng araw ko sa skul... a chat with them after class and a trip to the chez and oval, ayos na.. diba aaron and jeanelle? hehe .. parang nababasa nila to noh..

hayy.. i dunno.. i feel down... messed up... 'useless' hhayy... i was sitting infront of my pc the whole day doing nothing... idunno.... i want to change this kind of whatever you may call this, hobby i guess... but i think it's addiction... addiction to internet?? i hope not!!! HAHA maybe this is my way of comforting myself here at home... pero a talk with my mum is better than this... ewan ko.... hhayy... it's hard growing up...... too many problems,,,, too many realizations.. too many lessons to learn..... too many silly wounds that will never mend... i dont know why am i experiencing this right now... and i guess making this blog is a big help to release my thoughts... to let anybody there know that there is this not so important girl experiencing these things...

i wish the moon is shining down on me tonight just like last saturday... hehe... wishful thinking...

who cares by the way.... hhayy...

ako ang prinsesa ng sablay

biscuits under the moonlit night

why is the moon so bright tonight?



*toot toot toot*

haha oopppss.. that was my cellphone.. somebody remembered me! hahaha and that txt message started it all..

moon gazing..

" the moon is shining down on u.. wt a perfect moon 2nyt " the message says..

so i picked up my butt on the floor and looked out in the window and saw a starless moonlit sky.. he's right.. the moon is shining down on me.. so perfect.. the attention is all on it....

i can't take my eyes off it.. so i decided to get some snacks in our kitchen (hehee i was hungry then) and sat on one of the steps of our stairs and i just stared outside the window and gazed upon the majesty of the sky...

when i asked my friend what is he doing his reply was "nag-aabang ng shooting star,hehe... ikw ba?"

hahaha nag-abang na rin ako ng shooting star..

i was waiting for a shooting star while eating my biscuits... hehe

pero ang tagal nung shooting star ehh.. kaya sabi ko, pintahan na lang namin ng star ang sky... nauna akong nagpinta! and then sya naman! inilagay daw nya ung name nya dun sa star! hahaha.. hhayyy... tapos sabi nya sana daw sa bubong ng bahay nila magpatak ung falling star para magwiwiwsh na lang daw sya ng magwiwish.. heheh.. kakatuwa.... simple thought like that makes me smile.. ako naman, sana makalipad ako tapos makakuha ng isang star tapos itatago ko and magwiwish din ako nang magwiwish.. hehehe... anyway, wala talaga akong nakitang shooting star... siguro nakakita ung kaibigan ko .. ehehe.. so the moon gazing ended... and we bid each other gudnyt..

simple things like this puts a smile on my face...

specially now.. when i feel down.. and messed up..

tunay nga na mahalaga ang mga kaibigan kasi kahit ung presence lang nila, mapapasaya ka na..

i wish the stars will explode tonight and some pieces of it will fall in my hands... hehehe

meet me in outerspace
we could spend the night watch the earth come up
i've grown tired of that place
would you come with me?
-stellar-incubus

Thursday

uhhmm.. i want to spill my heart out....

so uhhh...


at exactly 3.58pm, i saw mr. messy hair...wow... the happiness i felt can be compared to the happiness of a child inside a candy store.. i mean, after all the mess/stress in school, i finally felt free from worries because i caught a glimpse of that guy..

i think it's a good thing to have someone to look up to.. i mean, it motivates you somehow.. like now, i am motivated! uhh.. motivated to study my lessons and to do some homeworks.. haha

later..

caught a glimpse of you
i tremble
everytime you walk by
-urbandub

the guy with the messy hair II

why am i bleeding inside?

this entry is for yesterday's shit or hmm... anything that pops in my mind..

note: my paragraph sucks... it's not coherent and lacks unity.. uhhmm... forgiveness ms.rosima(our english teacher) hehe...

warning: quite boring

i didn't attend my class yesterday because i think i need a break after 3 days of playing basketball... the sad news is, we didn't make it to the championship.. who's to blame? US.. nagpabaya kasi kami.. final score is 33-36(lasalle-mabini). we were ahead of 12 points to mabini and the remaining time was 2mins.. but with that spun of time, nakahabol sila (nagpabaya kami). Mabini made two 3-point shots plus free-throws... after the game, there were crying and blaming... but in the end, we realized that it's just a game.. "it's not the end" our coach said.. lessons were learned.. it's part of growing up.. GROW UP! hhayy...

i didn't sleep well the night after that game... i cried yeahh... but what's the sense of crying.. we have to move on... our team has to.. and i think we already are.. =)

hmm.... i've commited 5 fouls in our game with canossa.. hehe... i was technically, fouled out... twas my first time... so i wasn't able to play for the rest of the quarters (3rd and 4th)

im through with the game... im through with the pain i've felt (our team felt) during that moment... IT'S OVER.. MOVE ON..

but how can i move on!! i've missed so many things in school! haha.. good thing my dear friend yvonne was there to take down notes for me... she's so kind.. damn... she had written the things i've missed! ALL of them... THANKS YVONNE... what would i do without you..

at around 2.30 i've left our house and went to school to gather my messed up things... i mean, missed things... LOL i've arrived in school at around 3pm.. i still have to wait for 1hour because our class has it's 'special' dismissal time! all the other kids can go home at 3pm but we still have class at that time... the point is, 4pm is our dismissal time.. haha.. how stupid can i get in telling things huh? so i've spent that 1hour talking to some football varcity players of our school... we shared some jokes! haha and played some guitar.. btw, here's one of the jokes i've learned!!

Bakit ang kalesa hinihila ng kabayo?
Kasi hindi kayang itulak ng kabayo ang kalesa.

LOL yeahhhhhhhhhhhh :D

the best part of my day:

i saw the punk guy again... twas in the afternoon about 5pm at the outside courts.. my classmates and i were playing volleyball.. and then suddenly i saw something familiar... something i readily recognize.. haha it's his hair.... damn that hair.. sooo cool.... i was staring at him like a dork.... good thing im hidden behind some bush! HAHAHA he played basketball with some of the players from team B of boys basketball team.. HE IS WICKEDLY COOL... -_- he's friendly too.... haha i think... damn that hair...... =D

to give you an idea how his hair looks like check this out:

http://www.geocities.com/stellarster/hair.jpg

hmm... so i guess.. this is the end of my entry.. haha... so dorky..
i have lotsa things to do.... missed things in school... good luck to myself..
and... thanks for reading this... if anyone did.. thanks for listening to my sht..


i dig my toes into the sand
the ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket
i lean against the wind
pretend that i am weightless
and in this moment..

i am happy...

wish you were here*

the guy with the messy hair

damn.. guess what... i saw the punk guy with the messy hair today!! my wish was granted!! haha... wow..... i was smiling like a dork................... thank you God for letting me see that guy again...... t'was like my world has stopped from spinning.... it turned out that my head was the one spinning at that moment... haha..

uhmm.. we won at our first game in the division meet... tom. will be a big day... coz we will have a game with canossa.. God bless us..

i've missed so many things in school!!! academically speaking!!! i am excused from attending classes this whole week because of the division meet... and man....... im missing too many quizzes, discusions.... anyway,,, this whole week is for 'playing' by the way... maybe i should endulged myself into into it and forget about school works (at least for a week) for next week i'll be back in the classroom again.... i miss my classmates...

uhhmm... hope to see that messy hair again... lol ^____________^

and yeah... im still bleeding inside.....


and i will flail
under this light...
that seep down from the bitter sky tonight...
-nigthingale/saves the day

i've listened to Chris' confessions

my first DC album
www.dashboardconfessional.com

Chris Carrabba is never unnoticed.. btw, can you see the comet in this picture? sweet...
www.dashboardconfessional.com

bumped on Chris' Dashboard

same question about love.. why does it feel so good yet it feel so bad?

whataday.. the moment i woke up till this moment i still feel so bad.. i dunno why..

i started my day by doing the same things... woke up... ate my breakfast and went to school to attend basketball training.. we practiced hard this time together with the college team in preparation for the division meet this coming Tuesday. We had a tough practice game (us vs. the college team).. uhhmmm... we lose haha pero may score naman kami! haha unlike last year! sorry.. high school lang kami LOL.. the training started at 7.30(not exactly LOL) till 12.30

my mum fetched me in school and we went directly to Alabang. She needed to go there because she had an appointment with her dentist and she needed to buy some computer stuffs for our store.. i was in bad mood at that time because... i dunno... i feel like it... so it was the BAD me.. but that didn't last the whole afternoon haha the reason behind that?? i bought Dashboard Confessional's cd with a dvd included in the package.. hhayyy... i remembered the first time i heard these guys. twas i think last yr. it was Pepe's fault. (Pepe is a good friend of mine). he influenced me with his music and DC was one of them. the song was Hands Down. my first DC song. and i loved it the first time i heard it.. <3

at around 4.30 we drove back home.. we visited my lolo and lola (as always) and had our dinner there. i listened to DC at my cousin's player because there's something wrong with the cd player of our vehicle... the first song was Hands Down (bringing back the old memories).. anyway, we finally came home at around 8pm.. i immidiately watched the dvd to see Chris Carraba LOL he's cute no wonder lots of girls watch their show.

wish for today: to see Chris Carraba haha wishful thinking is not bad..

so much for all the promises you made,
they served you well.
now you're gone and they're wasted on me.
-rapid hope loss*DC

hole in the sky

why do some people break the rules when they fall in love? well, if you know the answer tell me.

by the way, to tell you how my day was...

t'was rainy the whole day... so i brought my lucky jacket in school.. (hope that jacket still has its charm) i like the rain by the way.. reminds me of something..

soo... morning classes were fine especially during CL time.. i've learned life's lessons once again like instead of paying back, pay it forward.. what i mean is share what you have to others.. another one was that we are not here to impress people but to express ourselves.. hahaha so trueee...

afternoon classes were better... we had our paragraph writing in english.. i enjoy writing because it's another way of expressing myself.. expressing my confusing thoughts and unspoken feelings.. after that we had our music class.. we had this duet thing happening and yeahh... i sang together with my partner... haha we sang torete by moonstar88.. i dont know if i sucked... but i think i did... the point is, i was not there to impress but to express! hahaa so much of that principle.

after classes, my friend and i went to the chez to have some snacks.. yeahh.. and OMG we saw this cool guy plus his cool car.. hahahaha and we followed him to the parking lot.. ya know.. trippings.. but i told my friend that we are just wasting our time so we proceeded to the chez!! we bought some drinks and walked our feet off!! hahahaa i was suppose to meet a friend to return his cd but.. anyway, after that, i attended my training(yeah i play basketball in school). we just had some shooting drills and finished early because the open court was wet... full of puddles.... i was getting dirty and all but t'was fun LOL

so that's it...

still raining at this moment..

and im not yet finished with my homework..

btw, this is my first time to post a blog here..

ilang gabi pa nga lang nang tayo'y pinagtagpo
na parang may tumulak nanlalamig nanginginig nga ako
akala ko nung una ay may bukas ang ganito
mabuti pang umiwas pero salamat na rin ang nagtagpo
-moonstar88