sorry

dun sa mga napagbuhusan ko ng sama ng loob kanina.. pasensya na kayo..

yvonne
cocoi
pat
anton

hindi dapat ako nagpakita ng ganung ugali sa inyo..

sorry..

salamat sa pag intindi..

aaron
vernix

lilipas din to.. pero kelan...

fifteen

And now I concede
On the night of this fifteenth song
Of melancholy, of melancholy
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That I love you, I love you.
I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘Cause tonight I’ll leave my fears behind
‘Cause tonight I’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go
Will never let go.

The clock on the TV says 8:39 PM
It’s the same, it’s the same
And in this next line
I’ll say it all over again
That I love you, I love you.

I don’t care what they say
I don’t care what they do
‘Cause tonight I’ll leave my fears behind
‘Cause tonight I’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go
Will never let go.

I’ll leave my fears behind
‘Cause tonight I’ll be right at your side.

Lie down right next to me
Lie down right next to me
And I will never let go
Will never let go.

But still I see the tears from your eyes
Maybe I’m just not the one for you.

Broken Sonnet
Hale

shades

Nanginginig na mga kamay
Puso kong hindi mapalagay
Pwede ba kitang tabihan
Kahit na may iba ka nang kasama
Ito na ang gabing di malilimutan
Dahan-dahan tayong nagtinginan

Parang atin ang gabi para bang wala tayong katabi
Nang tayo'y sumayaw na parang di na tayo bibitaw

Nalalasing sa yong tingin
di malamn-laman ang gagawin
Habang lumalalim ang gabi ay
Lumalapit ang ating mga labi
Ito na ang gabing di malilimutan
Tayo'y naglakad ng dahan-dahan

Parang atin ang gabi para bang wala tayong katabi
Nang tayo'y sumayaw na parang di na tayo bibitaw

Matapos man ang sayaw, pangakong di ka bibitaw

Prom
Sugarfree

shhh

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind.

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply.

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
questions,
She is wondering how long you will be
around.

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few
seconds,
She is not at all fine.

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying.

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention.

When a GIRL wants to see you everyday,
She wants to be pampered.

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once.

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it.

When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her
future.

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that

i am a girl. LOL

i think this is called "hidden psychology"? if there's such thing.. LOL

too many shits are happening right now..

skul shit
prom shit
shit
shit
shit


hahaha..

kaya ko to..

sprain

dahil sayo
ako'y nandito ngayon..


Dahil
Mayonnaise

una

ang ganda ng araw ko kahapon

sana tumigil ang oras

para hindi na natapos ang araw na 'yon

salamat sayo.

oo. ikaw.

wala ng iba.

hold my hand.

walk with me.

stay with me.

i love you.

flourescent lights

Fountains and flourescent lights.
When season has come
the snowbirds have crowded the nights.
And old townies are tired
of the beaches and bars
being packed so tight.
And bridges, and traffic, and inlets,
are locked in their fight.

And on these boats,
ride the hopes of working class boys,
dreaming of girls, from far away points.
And better things. Like winter flings.
And longing after spring has sprung.
And they fly north when winter's done.
And we get burned in summer's sun.

Fountains and fluorescent lights.
When season has come
the snowbirds have crowded the nights.
And young townies and tourists
find unlikely love at first sight.
And swear that they're never leaving
and that is their plight.

This winter is lasting forever,
at least for tonight.
And I know that you're never leaving,
until your flight,
takes you off,
and out of my arms,
and into the air,
so far from your charms,
that I can not bare,
another year,
in this long forgotten beach town,
we once shared.

This winter is lasting forever,
at least for tonight.
And I know that you're never
leaving me again.
No, not again

Snowbirds And Townies
Further Seems Forever

mata

Sulyap
By:wicked01


“Linoloko ba ako ng aking mga mata?”

Yan ang una kong naisip nang nakita kitang dumaan sa harap ko. Ang bilis-bilis ng pangyayari. Sulyap mo lang ang natanaw ko. Ngunit sapat na iyon upang ibalik mo ang lahat ng alaala natin. Bakit ba ang sama-sama mo? Halos isang taong ang ginugol ko para lang makalimutan ka, ngunit sa isang iglap lang, sa isang sulyap mo lang, ibinalik mo sa akin ang lahat, ang lahat-lahat… Ang mga ngiti, ang mga saya, ang mga luha… ang sakit.

Ganon din ba ang nangyari sa ‘yo? Nang tumingin ka sa kaliwa mo at may nakita kang… Teka… Ano nga ba ako sa ‘yo? Panaginip o Bangungot? Ngunit kahit anuman sa dalawwa, kitang-kita ko pa rin ang pagkagulat sa iyong mga mata. Bakit nga ba?
Naramdaman ko ang kabog nd dibdib mo dahil ganung-ganun din ang nararamdaman ko.
Dire-diretso ako. Hindi na ako lumingon kaya hindi ko alam kung tuloy-tuloy ka rin ba sa pupuntahan mo o tumingin ka habang naglalakad ako papalayo.

Buong gabi hindi ako makatulog nang dahil sa ‘yo. Hindi ko matanggal sa isip ko ang unang beses na nakita kita. Natatandaan mo pa ba? Kakalipat ko lang noon sa eskwelahan mo. Naliligaw pa ako noon nang bigla kang tumigil sa harap ko. Sabi mo, napansin mong nawawala ako nang dumaan ako sa harap mo. Nagmagandang-loob ka at tinulungan mo ako. Simula noon, lagi na tayong magkasama.

Ikaw ang nagsilbing liwanag sa madilim kong buhay noon. Ikaw ang laging nasa tabi ko para patawanin ako. Kilalang-kilala ka na ng mga magulang ko dahil lagi kang nasa bahay. Hindi mo napapansin, ngunit unti-unti nang nahulog ang loob ko sa ‘yo. Mahal na mahal kita ngunit hindi ko masabi dahil kapatid lang ang tingin mo sakin.

Masakit, pero tiniis ko. Sapat nang makasama kita araw-araw at makita ang mga ngiti mo. Pero tuso nga ata ang tadhana. Simula noong araw na inamin ko sa sarili ko na mahal kita, hindi na ako makatingin sa mga mata mo. Natakot akong baka Makita mo ang lihim ko. Dahil kahit hindi ko man sabihin ang nararamdaman ko, alam kong hindi makapag-sisinungaling ang mga mata ko. Ikaw ang lahat sa akin.

Minahal kita ng buong puso ko kaya’t ang sakit nang bigla ka na lang nawala. Hanggang ngayon, hindi ko alam kung ano ba talaga ang nangyari. Hindi ko alam kung nagsawa ka bas a pagkakaibigan natin o kung may ginawa ba akong masama. Litong-lito ako nang bigla mo na lang akong iniwasan. Hindi ka na pumupunta sa tambayan natin, o kaya pag magkakasalubong tayo sa daan, iikot ka para lang maiwasan ako.

Hindi naman ako manhid. Halata ko nang ayaw mo na akong Makita o maging kaibigan. Ang hindi ko maintindihan ay kung bakit hindi ka man lang nagpaalam. Kaya’t masakit man, iniwasan na rin kita. Bumuo ako ng bagong mundo kung saan wala ka na. Madilim dahil ikaw ang ilaw ng buhay ko. Malungkot dahi wala na ang mga ngiti mo. Hindi man nagging madali, pinilit kong limutin ka katulad ng paglimot mo sakin. Pinalibutan ko ang sarili ko ng mga bagay na mag-aalis sa sipan ko ng mga alaala mo. Ang lahat ng pinagsamahan natin ay itinago ko sa kasuluk-sulukan ng durog-durog kong puso.

Pinilit kong alisin ka sa buhay ko ngunit hindi ko kaya. Pati nga nana ko nagtatanong kung nasaan ka na. Wala akong maisagot. Hindi ko masabi ang totoo. Ngunit kailangan kong ipagpatuloy ang buhay ko. Kailangan kong bumuo ng bagong buhay na wala ka na; kung saan ni minsan ay ‘di ka pa nakasama. Mahirap man, kinaya ko.

At heto ako ngayon, nakatingin sa kawalan dahil sa pangyayaring ‘di ko inaasahan. Nag-iisip na gibain muli ang buhay na isang taon kong binuo dahil lamang sa pagbabalik mo. Unti-unting hinilom ng labindalawang buwan ang puso ko ngunit nawala lahat iyon sa isang iglap lamang. Ang laki ko talagang tanga. Heto na naman ako, nagpapa-apekto sa ‘yo samantalang wala naman akong puwang sa buhay mo, sa puso mo.

Naiinis na ako. Ba’t ba tumutulo ang mga luhang ‘to sa mga mata ko? Sa lahat ng naranasan kong hirap at sakit, hindi man lang ako umiyak. At darating ka para lang paiyakin ako… Ba’t ba hanggang ngayon ay hawak mo pa rin anb guhay ko?

Magaalas-dose na ng umaga nang maka-tulog ako. ‘Di bale, sanay na naman ako. Sa pagdating nitong bagong araw, siyang bagong panako sa sarili na kakalimutan na talaga kita. Hindi pwedeng lagi mo na lang binubulabog ang tahimik kong mundo.
Siguro nga, pinlano ito ng Diyos – na makita uit kita. Sinusubukan siguro iya kung makakaya kong sirain ang buhay na pilit kong binuo sa pag-alis mo. Naiintindihan ko na, alam ko na ang tama kong gawin.

Bilang sagot sa hiling ko, nakita muli kita makalipas ng ilang araw. Ngunit hindi tulad noong unang beses na Makita kita, alam ko na ngayon ang gagawin ko.
“Uy, kamusta na? Ang tagal na nating hindi nag-uusap. Nakita kita noong isang araw, pero dire-diretso ka lang. Saan ka ba pupunta ngayon? Samahan na kita..” sabi mo.
Kaso nakapag-desisyon na ako. Kung mahal mo nga rin ako, dapat sinabi mo na noon pa… Pasensya ka na… ayoko na… Mahal nga kita, pero ngayon, tapos na akong maghintay.

Sawa na ako sa sakit.

“Wag na lang, hindi na naman ako nawawala ngayon eh. Natuto na ako.”

ginawa to ng kaklase/kaibigan ko.. pinabasa nya sakin nung EB kanina..

sakto..

ctrl

Kamusta na nandyan ka pa ba
Wala na yatang ibang magagawa kundi tumawa
Nandyan pa ba mga alalala
Ang tanging bagay na naiwan sa ating dalawa


Wag ng paikutin ang isa't isa
Lahat ng bagay ay malinaw na
Di na rin kailangan pagpilitan pa

Di mo na kinakailangan pang magsalita

Nakita ko na lahat ditto pinahihiwatig ng mata mo
Salamat na lamang sa iyo

Mata
Mojofly

hayy... gusto kong umalis dito... gusto kong may makinig sakin.... gusto kong umiyak.... gusto kong.......

ayoko na....


salamat na lang sa iyo..

salamat

bakit kaya ganun.. hindi ko maintindihan..

magulo..

malabo..

masakit..

buti na lang andyan mga tunay kong kaibigan... dahil sa kanila, masaya pa rin ako.. salamat sa inyo.. yvonne..aaron.. :(

mina, kung nababasa mo to.. send mo naman sakin yung 'Sulyap'...

salamat.

kamusta na? nandyan ka pa ba?

nike bag

he + his nike bag=wow.

i caught a glimpse of him.

so?

• it's a perfect motivation for me to finish tons of school work due tomorrow.

• i don't feel bad anymore for having pimples.. because now, he has.. LOL

regret me. don't forget me.

!

It's so nice sitting very still,
in a room where no one else can feel the pain that breaks my heart each day, I'm not ok.
Sunlight shining through my window, let's me know that I'm still alive
Why did I ever let you inside my heart? I'm such a fool.
Paint my face in shades of blood and grey and take a seat right next to me
but I should've known that you were a killer.
But now I'm dead.

A gaping hole, shot through my heart
A lost connection from your poison dart
Shot from your tounge to end my life.
You're blowing at the fire to light your strife.

You'll never know.
The hardest thing about dying is, knowing you'll never see the light of day.

A gaping hole shot...(shot through my heart)
A lost connection from your poison dart.
My head now spins and my ears bleed gold.
I try so fucking hard, but I can't fit your mold.

You ripped my heart out, you tore my eyes out, now you're gonna pay
I'll stab you one time.
I'll eat your heart out so you feel my pain.
Don't you know that I always see you in all of my dreams?
I wanna kill you. I wanna kill you. Now i'm insane.

black shirt

Antipara
The Rushed
Lokal
First Fight shit i forgot what's next
LRH (Last Reminisced Heroes)
Conseco
As I Run Again
Aplaya Band
Lunch Box

These are the bands that "screamed their lungs off" at the recently held battle of bands which I attented to.. The event was in part of the Tertiary School's celebration of Business Management Week.

haha kararting ko lang actually.. so.. here's my story..

i woke up at exactly 12.15am.. i ought to because i need to watch the said event. It will be my topic for my news story in our English subject (that's why im using enlish in this entry.. practice practice practice).. by the way, don't blame my teacher for this whatsoever... it is my choice to write something about the event.. so i need to do my responsibility, which is to gather facts about the event..

i was with my dad (as always. lol) hayy.. we have to negotiate with the securty guard because it was already 1am when we arrived at school and they were ordered that nobody is allowed to enter beyond 10.30 pm. I think it took us 30 minutes before i was allowed to go inside. I talked to the organizers of the event and told them that I NEED TO WATCH the battle. the reason i got in my bag was that i need to gather facts about the event for i will write a news article. hehe. naawa yata sakin. "sya sige na baka hindi ka pa makatulog." yan ung sabi sakin.. lol. i'm thankful because they were so cooool about that. They allowed me to watch. hehe. ang swerte ko. unfair nga lang dun sa iba na hindi nila pinapasok. lol. they were strict about the security of the peeps inside... and i praise them for that.

MY HEART CRASHED.

It crashed in the sea of happiness. lol.

I was smiling like a jerk the moment i entered the sentrum. Ms. Lea and Ms. Sarmiento ( the cool-slash-kind-slash astig oragnizers) assisted me inside and un.. i was sitting at the back part with other peeps and all the other peeps were at the bleachers.. the "center floor" is empty.. the lights are sooo cool.. astig ang centrum.. simple lang..

damn.

I wasn't able to watch the performances of Antipara, The Rushed, Lokal and First Fight i told you i forgot. Naabutan ko lang ay from LRH till Lunch Box. I know the band LRH. I'd got the chance of watching them at the Muziklaban last July2004. I've known them also because of dude pepe.

so i was sitting there jotting some notes (band names, thoughts bla bla) haha btw, i got a new phone.. P800.. it's my dad's old phone and he decided to just give it to me. i used my phone in jotting down notes. I still need to do my responsibilty anyway. kaya un.. and it's a plus points if you have the passion for that responsibility. Naenjoy ko sya..

After the performace of Lunch Box, i decided to get some facts from the organizers. They were sooo kind about that. gosh.. Buti hindi sila nakukulitan sakin. They were there to help me! hayy.. salamat salamat. i still need to go back to school tomorrow for some pictures of the events and to know who WON the battle! hehe

after that, i decided to go home. other peeps will stay there until 5am.

so that's it.. hmm.. i still need to improve my way of writing stuffs.. i'm expressing too much of myself not realizing i'm breaking the laws in writing.. hay.. for education's sake..

hehe. i just noticed, i was not using the correct punctuation.. see.. the double periods... lol.. and just look at my capitalizations... i need an editor..

i've already written parts of my news strory. i just need to fill the spaces regarding the facts.

i wore my "on my own" black t-shirt.

rock on.